Can You Tell I'm Smiling

Particle

I'm a part of genuine article that I love

Made before the days I know now and what's more I can't do without

Driving through King City

Going to the most pretty place I know

Nothing's waiting for me here or there and so I'm wondering why I can't back out

Don't say I won't try

I'm trying now

Particle

I'm a part of genuine article that I love

Wounded fatally

You say I couldn't pay to see you tomorrow

Fuck the seed I sow

I don't need to know til tomorrow

I can do what you do

I'll hurt me like you used to tomorrow

I'm gonna mourn my choice

And I won't use my voice til tomorrow

You're asking how this feeling gets better when it's on a page

And I don't know if it does

But if it does

I don't recognize myself

I need to get real help in the morning

Only sleeping well

And only passing time by ignoring

You're asking how this feeling gets better when it's on a page

And I don't know if it does

But if it does

I give up going to work

I only want to get worse by the evening

My name is covered in dirt

And all the wonderful words stop repeating

You're asking how this feeling gets better when it's on a page

And I don't know if it does

But if it does

Lo, behold your golden angel rushing back home once the rain fell

Who tells you "Go stand on that corner"? Why suffer? Long live the torture

Lie with my all-time deceiver, still on the hook - my receiver

She eats me, white bread and water, prisoner fed by her partner

Doubt without description disperses, part like the clouds have a purpose

Leave, be brief, take what you came with

See you again

Stop complaining

Falling in while falling out of

Fierce and docile, lost and found love

I've been working, I'm trying to keep it

Nothing's worth it if you leave

I never want to know when

Don't ever want to know why

While you're keeping the score I'm moving

And I don't know what this keeping score is proving

Thoughts you had, advice you're giving

Good or bad I'm not much for listening

You'll be patient, I'll be doctor

I'll be patient, nothing offered

I never want to know when

Don't ever want to know why

You only wanted me when?

Don't everybody know why?

While you're keeping the score I'm moving

But I don't know what this keeping score is proving

I didn't mean to call you

Well I did, but I didn't want to

See I was thinking that I needed to talk to a friend

I blame it on the last one I had

Was drinking like I never had felt so bad

If you don't want to see me you don't have to leave me

Just turn away

I don't know what to say to you now

It took me so long to work it all out

I couldn't help it, I mean I really couldn't help myself

I'd kill to make a martyr of me

I will if you say it's smarter to be

But if it's nothing to you, I'm not the one to see through you

Since you turned away

And we don't have long to go

With open eyes I want to die real slow

And the worst thought I ever had is coming back